My friends make me hate myself more than anything.
I don’t even blame them.

Doin navy thangs

Why is it that most girls my age hate their bodies more than anything, and I’m actually okay with mine. I guess that’s the shitty thing is that with your body you can change it , but it’s so hard to change your demeanor and how you are. Like hard to change your appearance but much harder to change who you are.

I went a good amount of time without having attacks.
And without hating my mind and thoughts and actions and now everything is back
I need to rewire again and get calm and stay happy and not talk to people. I wish I was introverted.
I hate being made fun of.
I hate thinking. I hate having feelings
I wish I was more apathetic and and didn’t give a fuck.
I just hate everything right now.
I need to rewire.

Self loathing today.

Not excited about today.

I seem to have an unpopular opinion on most things.

Just signed up for my third half marathon kids.

Anonymous was like:
What made you join the navy?

So I was all:

There was nothing at home for me. I wasn’t gonna go to college and I didn’t want to work the same pointless job forever. Idk. A collective of things but it was a good idea so far.


You know when you need to practice speaking a language but you don’t want to speak it in front of native speakers because you’re worried they will judge you for your poor grammar skills and limited vocabulary

(via tulimyrsky)



Shavelle, its the only facial hair in regs. Also stop talking shit. You sit in a basement similar to kens all week and smoke weed and do online college courses for a false future.

My Sunday Monday Fun day.

I hate everything about me.

Got burnt.